Stronger than Before

Salam 2228hours, 11th July 2018! Alhamdulillah, I am almost done with my degree and now waiting for internship. I have decided to intern in Shah Alam for 6 months and the salary is not bad. 🤣 My life is flowing better and sometimes hit by a rock but I don’t mind because it can good nor bad ☺️ As I will be turning 23 this year, I am quite scared to think about getting married and having a new family; nah, I just feel lonely sometimes as my friends mostly engaged with their love one. It is not like I am being jealous but soon or later I will be like them right? I just hope that I can get the best future husband; penyayang, taat dkt ibu bapa dan Allah swt, meninggalkan segala maksiat, pimpin ke jalan Allah, bawa saya dan anak anak ke syurga (in syaa Allah). I keep on praying for those things I wanted in my life but I know the time is not yet come. I know Allah is the best planner and he will grant all the wishes! I feel so sad and quite shocked because my ex will be getting married. We are in a good terms but I do not know why I felt like this. I already move on since 2014 and at that time, I was the happiest girl in the world! No burden, no crying in the middle night. I just need to be strong enough to handle my emotion well. Hmm, pray for me ya?

Thoughts

Salam 2336 hours, 29th March 2016 Hai guys! Alhamdulillah, its been one month I stayed at home, doing chores and etc since my internship ended last month. Time flies really fast huh? How are you guys doing? I hope you are enjoying your life with love ones. As I mentioned before, I wanted to pursue my degree in oversea but I guess the time is not right. I get the response from family and friends. they are actually brief and motivate me if I can do well in foreign country. Can I adapt the culture? Can I be fluent in German language? Am I able to understand? I wish I can do it and I know its hard because you have to be confident. You are alone, you have no one there, your family wont be able to come every month. I have to accept and think of my benefit. In syaa Allah, my degree would be at Management and Science University, Shah Alam. Again! Haha~ Please pray for my success. Amiinn!

Farewell

Salam 

26th January, 1737hours

My parents went to umrah with cousin and dad's sistur. I hope they will be fine and have a smooth journey. 

They will be going for 13 days, nah not that longg. Haha! Im trying to control my emotions. Its good I am here in Penang, so I will not be crying in front of them. Im just worried with current issues news. 

Please pray for them eh? Thanks a lot

You are gone

Salam 

16/1/2016

The day I have lost you, as my precious friend.

Dear Sha, 

Farah nak mintak maaf dr hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki sebab mcm mcm farah kutuk awak. Hanya kerana dari mulut orang, kita gaduh. Paling benci kalau gaduh sampai tak cakap. 

Kita start rapat masa International Cuisine. Start kuar makan dengan Afi dgn Dayah, makan kat boat noodle kat Jaya One. Lepas tu kita makan sangkaya, jalan jalan cuci mata. Farah rindu awak , Sha. Tak terkata betapa terkejutnya dpt tahu awak dah takde dkt dunia ni. 

Farah ade lagi simpan botol Victoria Secret yg awak bg. Thanks Sha for everything. Maaf sbb tak dpt penuhi impian awak, bucket list nak travel sesame. Farah rasa awak lagi happy sbb dpt travel ke syurga. 

Farah rindu nak peluk awak, farah nak tgk awak sihat mcm dulu, tembam tp comel sgt. Awak nak kurus, ikut Kevin Zahri tp tak dpt. Takpe la, dkt syurga mcm mcm awak boleh buat. 

Farah sayang awak sangat. I love you! You will be always in my doa. In syaa Allah, amin. 

Harus Terpisah?

Salam,

11/1/2016 2037hours 

What is all about "Harus Terpisah"? Since I have been working in Penang, I hate to say that I am missing my parents and siblings. Your mouth can lie but deep in your heart? only Allah knows how much you miss them. That bad! 

They came on 4th January - 5th January 2015. They visited me and we stayed at Bayview Beach, Batu Feringghi. Nah, I am so happy and blessed because I can meet them . 

Experience never ends

Salam guys, its been a year I didnt opened my bloggy. I hope you are fine and enjoy your life to the fullest.  

9/1/2016, 2049hours 

 My life doesnt change much, but the memories changed. 2016, road on going to complete my diploma since now I am doing my internship at Bayview Georgetown, Penang. Alhamdulillah, I really wanted to go to Penang, experience the culture of food, people and celebration. Penang looks like KL, traffic jam is terrible, lots of traffic light. I barely reached my destination almost an hour. There were few times late, 0715hours. 15 mins late GAHAHA! When the punch card clocks reached 0710hours, should go back at 1600hours, not 1500hours. I secretly clock out at 1500hours because I cant stand longer at kitchen. 8 hours standing in the kitchen, you might passed out. Huaa, I dont like hot cooking dept actually, because my heart now already stick to Pastry dept. I do love baking. Even myself got new mixer to bake cakes and breads. Of course, I love to eat! 😂 I will start to browse which Uni I will go for my degree. I will pursuing Degree in Pastry in Switzerland. Lucerne has a beautiful scenery! Lucerne is a mid village  and the buildings are all woody. Hehehe! In syaa Allah, if Allah wills, I will go. Amin!

New life, I guess?

Assalamualaikum and good night from me! Hee Hai guys, I miss my blog so much. Actually I am quite busy since this year is my last semester. After this, I will be going for practical for 3 months. In syaa Allah, please pray for my success! This year, turning into 20 yet I feel so young (perasan jap), but Alhamdulillah I managed to face the barriers and I feel so much better! Being into matured person is a good thing for me because I can be very independent person. I dont know why, when years past by, I have learnt a lot. I have learnt about "people", especially your so "friend". I have been stabbed, been ignored, and so forth. At that time, I feel so miserable and sad because I want to know why they did to me? I didnt think about jealousy or whatsoever but I wonder did they found their asset or goals whenever they did bad to others? Hmm, I am so blessed to have my family. They are my life supporter, whenever I have problems about studies or love, I will tell them about it but still I cant let it go. HAHAHA~ So cliche right? Sometimes, I feel bad to my parents, asking for money to buy food. University life is tougher than secondary. Once, I said to mom since at that time I have my finals so I said to her, I am fasting today. The reason I'm fasting because I dont have enough money. My mom actually mad because I didnt tell her the truth. I felt the burden~ I hope after I finish my diploma, In syaa Allah, I will go abroad to Switzerland to pursue my degree in culinary arts or pastry. I didnt decided yet. Urghhh, I am in delimma okayy~ The big news I want to tell you that I finallyyy get over him for 5 years. Give me applause! Haha! He has girlfriend, durr I am more beautiful than her, no doubt. KAHKAH! Being bitchy sometimes is good okay. Its good for your self esteem ;) Since I already get over him, I have found one guy. He is older than me, 4 years ;) For me, he is good looking and well mannered. I dont know whenever I saw him, I feel like "OMG OMG, I have to keep control of myself. Just smile at him" HAHA! Okay, then he saw and waved at me. I wanted to screammm out loud but the situation is not good. Sadly, he has girlfriend. His girlfriend is not that friendly and I guess she didnt like me? Who cares! The thing is, I already did Solat Istikharah. I feel so in peace. I hope he will be husband for future, Aminnn! Thanks for reading. Love each one of youu